yesterday was my official first day of work at oberweis...i couldnt wear any of my bracelets; no jewelery or anything. not even a watch...bare wrists. i hate my wrists. one of the reasons why i wear my bracelets are to cover them up. when i took off all my bracelets and stuff i felt so bare and de-personalized. i was just another unimportant person serving ice cream. anyways, my overall point of this is that i got that ribbon from the art museum last year...you pick a wish or something, tie it on to your wrist or neck, and when it comes off of its own free will, that wish comes true.
the one i got said "i wish i could be free". i couldnt take it off my wrist, it was too tight. so i was just hoping the manager wouldnt care or notice it. she did, and i told her i needed to cut it off. she said ok, and i thought i was home free until i had to work next. then she gives me these rusty scissors...i couldnt cut it off myself, so this girl helped me. she couldnt do it either, then the manager had to. but it took a long time...is that a sign? i know i sound stupid, but i planned to never take off the bracelet myself.... and then it was forcefully snapped off...will i ever be free?

it came off, so either im free NOW, or it's all just the same...i kind of wanted to get that out because i lost my notebook

i dont want to have to be upset about a 78% in a class i deserve an F in just because i know my parents will bitch me out. im proud..i almost have a fuckin B in pre-calc! i dont want to hear about an 84% in an english class that i understand and dont NEED a grade in.

i think im gonna stay off DA for a while, dont expect that much from me..im leaving for a while.

i just want to be independent and gone, be able to control my OWN life. i can do it. i know i can. i just need the chance. let me go....

by the way, i know who you are; the aged person reading this. the person with the wine in her hand and a pet in her lap. you need to get out of my life. what you're doing isn't right. leave me alone.